Sunday, September 9, 2012

I will carry you

Dear Sarah,
Today I heard this song by Selah (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pxZhEcTzn6Q) It made me think of you.  I thought I'd carry you in me for nine months waiting to carry you in my arms.  Its just different now and I feel like this is the longest gestation!  I carried you in me, briefly met you, and will now carry you in my heart, waiting to wrap you in my arms someday in heaven.  I definitely wouldn't have chosen this path, but I also would rather have met you and get to hold you in my heart for now than to have never met you at all.  I'm still sad, but I still live with the "pregnancy excitement" of getting to know you in the future.  I am grateful that Jesus is holding you now and doing all the things with you that I wanted to do.
I love you,
Mommy

I Will Carry You (Audrey's Song) by Selah

There were photographs I wanted to take
Things I wanted to show you
Sing sweet lullabies, wipe your teary eyes
Who could love you like this?

People say that I am brave but I'm not
Truth is I'm barely hanging on
But there's a greater story
Written long before me
Because He loves you like this

[Chorus]
I will carry you
While your heart beats here
Long beyond the empty cradle
Through the coming years
I will carry you
All my life
And I will praise the One Who's chosen me
To carry you

Such a short time
Such a long road
All this madness
But I know
That the silence
Has brought me to His voice
And He says ...

I've shown her photographs of time beginning
Walked her through the parted seas
Angel lullabies, no more teary eyes
Who could love her like this?

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