Heaven is more real
to me now. Don't get me wrong, I've always believed that there is a
place where we'll spend eternity with God but it was more foreign, like
head knowledge or simply something down the road that I didn't think about often because, honestly, for the most part my life here is pretty great. But now I've held my daughter and
watched as she slipped from us and mysteriously went to this place.
And now I think of heaven daily: What is it like? The boys ask about heaven often and we've had many
discussions...as much as you can with two and four year olds! They
wonder if Sarah is eating dinner, if she's running and playing games
with Jesus, singing, or sleeping. Gabe and Zach pray to Jesus
to ask him to tell Sarah we miss and love her. Zach wants to drive his orange car to heaven to say hello to Baby Sarah. I wonder what Sarah knows. I know she is with Jesus and there are no tears there but, as we miss her, I wonder if she misses or even knows about us. And what does she know or remember about her short time with us? Does she know how much we
love her or that we really did everything we could to try to keep her?
While in such pain now, at times the grief feels like a physical burden, I am simultaneously repulsed by our sinful world where such tragedies happen and also sense glimpses of heaven as I feel Gods presence with me, tastes of what it will be like to be completely in his presence in heaven someday and what I know Sarah is experiencing now. Our pastor taught recently about the story in the Bible where Jesus wept because his friend Lazarus died. Pastor Paul spoke of how Jesus cares (he grieves with us) and also will bring life from death and sadness. In the case of Lazarus he literally brought life as he raised Lazarus back from the dead. In our case...I don't fully know yet but I know that over time we will use this experience to grow closer to God, each other and help others in pain. Life from death and sadness.
I've clearly become even more addicted to Selah's music over these past weeks and I'd like to share yet another song. "On the Mountain" reminds me that life is a journey, perhaps feeling difficult as if climbing a mountain. I get glimpses of heaven now but its just past my grasp. I can imagine bits of it, but lets face it...its behind our human comprehension that a place exists that's outside time. As I Corinthians 13:12 says: "For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known." Just like a mountain rising up out of sight into the clouds, I can only see the part of my path that is right in front of me and I have to keep walking, reaching, longing for what I can't see.
Please listen to this song and remember that this life is a journey filled with amazing moments as well as obstacles. I'm walking this journey with my friend and Savior Jesus as closely as I can in this life, knowing that someday I will see Him face to face. If you're not already on this journey with Jesus, will you join me?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N3P34dYi3UQ
I’ve been climbing my whole life
And I’m only at the bottom of the mountain,
At the bottom of the mountain
Rising up from my feet in the daylight
Rising up into the clouds and out of my sight
Is the height of that mountain
Well my hands cannot reach it
And my mind can’t comprehend it
But my soul is gonna get there one day
No, my hands cannot reach it
And my mind can’t comprehend it
But my soul is gonna get there one day
Lord, these shoes are gonna need some help
So we can make it to the top of the mountain
To the top of your mountain
Many feet have gone before us
With a habit of faith and courage
They’ll meet us at the road’s end
REPEAT CHORUS
BRIDGE:
Yes, yes, I think I will
Oh yes, I know we will
Yes, yes, I know we will
Oh yeah, I know we…
I’ve been climbing my whole life
And I’m only at the bottom of the mountain
At the bottom of the mountain
All along this road when it feels so far to the top
You say, “Just hold on to the mountain.”
REPEAT CHORUS (X2)
TAG:
Well my soul (my soul) is gonna get there one day
While in such pain now, at times the grief feels like a physical burden, I am simultaneously repulsed by our sinful world where such tragedies happen and also sense glimpses of heaven as I feel Gods presence with me, tastes of what it will be like to be completely in his presence in heaven someday and what I know Sarah is experiencing now. Our pastor taught recently about the story in the Bible where Jesus wept because his friend Lazarus died. Pastor Paul spoke of how Jesus cares (he grieves with us) and also will bring life from death and sadness. In the case of Lazarus he literally brought life as he raised Lazarus back from the dead. In our case...I don't fully know yet but I know that over time we will use this experience to grow closer to God, each other and help others in pain. Life from death and sadness.
I've clearly become even more addicted to Selah's music over these past weeks and I'd like to share yet another song. "On the Mountain" reminds me that life is a journey, perhaps feeling difficult as if climbing a mountain. I get glimpses of heaven now but its just past my grasp. I can imagine bits of it, but lets face it...its behind our human comprehension that a place exists that's outside time. As I Corinthians 13:12 says: "For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known." Just like a mountain rising up out of sight into the clouds, I can only see the part of my path that is right in front of me and I have to keep walking, reaching, longing for what I can't see.
Please listen to this song and remember that this life is a journey filled with amazing moments as well as obstacles. I'm walking this journey with my friend and Savior Jesus as closely as I can in this life, knowing that someday I will see Him face to face. If you're not already on this journey with Jesus, will you join me?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N3P34dYi3UQ
On The Mountain
I’ve been climbing my whole life
And I’m only at the bottom of the mountain,
At the bottom of the mountain
Rising up from my feet in the daylight
Rising up into the clouds and out of my sight
Is the height of that mountain
Well my hands cannot reach it
And my mind can’t comprehend it
But my soul is gonna get there one day
No, my hands cannot reach it
And my mind can’t comprehend it
But my soul is gonna get there one day
Lord, these shoes are gonna need some help
So we can make it to the top of the mountain
To the top of your mountain
Many feet have gone before us
With a habit of faith and courage
They’ll meet us at the road’s end
REPEAT CHORUS
BRIDGE:
Yes, yes, I think I will
Oh yes, I know we will
Yes, yes, I know we will
Oh yeah, I know we…
I’ve been climbing my whole life
And I’m only at the bottom of the mountain
At the bottom of the mountain
All along this road when it feels so far to the top
You say, “Just hold on to the mountain.”
REPEAT CHORUS (X2)
TAG:
Well my soul (my soul) is gonna get there one day
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